Author: Deeksha Kamath

Dearest dad,

You live within my thoughts,

My behaviour has an essense of yours.

Taught me to live for oneself

 but take the responsibility of all.

Never understood who you are,

but loved you from all my heart.

A life within, alive everyday,

The way you yearned for the fullness keeps me going every single day.

Back from college oh so tired,

Everyday without fail a cup  of tea ready on the table.

Oh it’s 4:30 ,she’ll be home any moment,

Welcomed with a smile and talks of the market,

The cup of tea indeed made for the best of the moments.

Let’s have tea together one more time, 

Our special ‘No sugar and lots of love’ again this time.

I love you.

There is this constant question in my mind “Why am I so scared?”

Expressing our emotions can be such a liberating feeling and yet we are scared.This is the same state many of us are in where we are uncomfortable, to the point that we feel we will lose all that we have if we express ourselves.

Scared to love, scared to be angry, scared of being judged.Why?

When you take even a single step in the wrong direction, there is this gut wrenching feeling of self-doubt which makes you want to crumble up into a ball of paper never wanting to be seen by anyone.

If only we could love without being scared of the other person not loving us, acquiring that inner freedom where all that we have got to give people is just love, maybe then we wouldn’t be that scared.

All that we need to spread is love, even in anger there has to be the spark of love that ignited it.

Doesn’t everyone want to be loved?So why would people judge us if we love them? They wont but there is no one to tell us this.

Maybe one day really we all will reach that point in life where we are no more scared of all these feelings within us.

Maybe that day we will be truly happy, expressive and find our inner peace.

How magical, deep and endless is the galaxy but the truth being the Human DNA comes with the same complexity and magic ,each day new discoveries are being made with regards to both.

We are all in this weirdly beautiful infinite loop with a finite period of discovering who we are truly and never really get an answer to it completely.The truth lies in the fact that there really isn’t a defined characteristic or definition of who you are.

We go on and on in a journey which is life trying to do different things, taking different paths, trying to achieve our goals and needs but when you take a moment and breathe,you realize that all of this is actually a way of finding ourselves, of what we are .

It is a continuous evolution,where everyday u learn from the past in terms of people, your mistakes, your habits, your good traits and the bad ones, it is all a path to self realization.

The ultimate question being who are you? which can’t be answered because there is no answer to it. You are who you choose to be.The search for it is everywhere but answer lies within you. You are what you define to be, you are the experiences you go through in life, the ups and the downs, the moments of happiness and sadness, the lonely moments are what shape you.

It is best to enjoy this journey full of questions about yourself and the universe with all your mind and soul because you are never really going to find the answer to it but only experience it as this is in fact how it is supposed to be.

Thanks for joining me!

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton